Same but different

Today i woke up.. not knowing my eye shields came off. Then i found them on the floor.. i guessed it dropped n my cats played with them. Oh wells... luckily post op check stated i was good to go.. away to bangkok. wahahaha..... gd gd gd..

With my new vision of 6/4.5 on a day 2.. i still seem a whole rim of blur n clear in the middle. It feels like wearing unclean contact lenses, a lil dry, a lil feel of the corners, yet all tt is left is thinner layer of tissues in my eye.. I hope day by day it will get less blur.. more HD(High definition).... heehee

My mum shoulder x ray shows that her disjoint parts were around 13mm by 8mm.. i forgot the medical names of the bones that disjoint.. but i feel worried about her possiblity of doing op. Doctor didnt seem any confident to make any decision.. suggest op yet uncertain seeking advice call from specialist.Fucking waited for 2 over hours and getting a screwed up junior doc. Thanks for sub. clinics. SO, tml my mum has to see another shoulder specialist. I hope they better give her good advice. But it just doesnt sound good... the pain won't really go off even after surgery.. all the surgery does is lessen the amount of pain. Shit.... sad. Y not give me the pain, at least it might heal faster. My mum was so worried hearing the word surgery, she was shivering while waiting for doc. So imagine the real op. I cant imagine.

It funny sometimes.. how people try to be someone they are not.. or is it that there is always 2 sides to a person, just depends on how they want to protray themselves to u? I wonder wonder wonder y.. ... I read the blog, i see one side, i talk to the person, i see the other side, yet i am confused after all, what is real? is there a real.. are both real or are both unreal or .... question marks all over. I know, we tend to hide the truth in order not to hurt others.. but hiding means hide everything rite? why leave bits n pieces for imagination to run wild. Fuck.

puzzled lil jj. need to rest.cant sleep.need to work.no mood for work.

I need to run.away run.away