shouting out

Does it hurt more when..
the one you love don't love you,
the one who loves you, you don't love,
the one you love loves you but have to be apart,
the one you love loves you but due to family issues,you can't get together?

Damn..slowly..it just starts to hurt....lesser n lesser or more n more.... either way, it really sucks.

People say i pretend to be strong or i look strong or i am really strong.. i have no idea myself.

Im really not tt strong after all, in fact, i get weaker as days go by, as my mind run wild.
As my loneliness kicks in, i am starting to get stressed out with my day to day life and the thoughts that are running thru my head just kills me..slowly...

Being in my comfort zone may have spoiled me..totally..But i embrace it..for i get everythin my way..enjoying my lil zone to the max.

Now tt i m out of the zone..... i get worked up..i get upset..i get cranky..on the inside.

sigh.. even my internal body system is killing me.. allergies casuing my eye to swell for the whole week.. i totally look like crap...n my vision is blurry half the time. My rashes on the neck n hands just doen;t go away and my bloatedness creating total tummy pains n burps.

pls pls pls.. i jus want my system back to normal.. so tough ?