screwed.

When did i last leave a note here?? b4 sch .. i jus noticed. Damn, 1 over month.

Today i had my first ever mid term exams aft like 3 yrs of No sch life... i mean.. current state of brains r rusty..hands r weak and i can't write shit.
Now, the greatest part of all.. i forgot wat i studied..circling all the wrong answers in the morning. So unhappy with my below average memory n my stupid mind.. how on earth it went blank n written so many wrong answers?!?!
Big big sighz.... its over.. i know.. i screwed up e 20%....

I mean.. i m not sure if i m stressing myself... or m i not cut out to study all these shit!?i m trying to concentrate trying to study.. yet.. not effective.!!
Conclusion is.. quantity is useless... spent maximum time is a waste of effort. Better off with last minute work, lesser time, more productive, justifies the quality better n at least getting a consulation if Pass is seen on the paper!

Work sucks big time as well. Leaving retail due to f. up politics... yet, current workplace is jus no way better, having more politics to handle. having wrong working partner is hell... reporting to superior is useless if no actions take place. So, what m i to do?? bearing all e grudges n unable to release them..

Rashes?!?! at this time of the year?!?! i mean... of all weeks.. choose my exams week to have such bad rash.. i dun even know wat i m allergied to?! applyin creamz..taking anti histamins... made me sleepy+uncomtable itch.... no positive outcome. Bad.. its all jus bad + bad + bad...= unhappy jj

Work isnt really enuff to sustain my fees n day to day needs or m i jus too greedy not saving any ? everythin is jus all making me feel screwed.

More work load?! reports due next, presentation.. another mid term paper. very unbearable itch... i need serious help.. mentally especially.. i need therapy!!!!!