Bored

Ok, its been ages since i last got online, needless to say the time to even write something here.Jus recalled how sad i was during the PEAK time of pouring all my thoughts out here!

i guess the best medicine/remedy for all the heartaches and all'unsolvable problems'.. is to self heal.. slowly..painfully..with lots of patience.i guess i am pretty much healing up well.

i m such an indecisive freak..i wish i can so change my lousy character n be a better person.I seriously dunno y time drains away so fast as we grow up/older??!1 day has 24hrs..i wonder how it flies off so fast.. tt when we act think back.. we dont do much constructive stuff in a day?! damn.. miserable..

Sparstic shit..i keep saying tt last time..come to think of it, i feel so bad..i serioualy wont want anyone in my life or anyone whom i know to be like tt.So sorry!! hai..my n my mouth..

Can we ever stop regretting out actions?or do humans just love guilt??its the trill and mental challenge to tell lies n keep hiding stuff to keep life running smooth and be interesting?! its kinda confusing how to run life well..........hai.......

time flies

Damn! when was the last time i ever nag inside here? erm...months!! i feel so back dated.. i havent use the comp..get online..in a long long time.It had been a real bad 2004 for me.. bad with relationships,money,work,future,life jus got so screwed up last yr. Throwing all the bad bad memories aside... i jus wish.... i can sort of be REBORN in the yr 2005... lotsa luck needed......... ahhhhhhhhh