Wat a night for me

  I have no idea where everyone rushes to on a wednesday night..anything fascinating on wed nite?  that cabs are so highly in demand that they are all 'on call' ... wtf.. i mean.. its already 9:15pm.. i am tired and i need a cab to get home ..none was avaliable.. DAMN.. Well, waiting was still not the worse part of it.. people actually try to steal cabs by standing slightly in front to hail a cab.. the sight is totally disgusting.. typical singaporeans... so inconsiderate. I know everyone is pressing for time.. tired.. etc.. but don't they have eyes to see that someone was actually in the queue... Hello, no courtesy at all!! that got me really upset. In the end, i had to take the bus.. i waited for the cab for 20 mins.. so i had no choice but to board the bus and went all the way to tanglin mall... trying my luck once again. This time.. same problem, people waving along the stretch of road.. in my heart, i was thinking..when can i ever reach home?.. i was blowing my top.. i wished someone could hear me complain... its annoying!! Finally, a nice taxi driver, stopped for me.. w/o stopping for that girl in front of me.. thanks so much... he was right to do so.. as i was hailing a cab like 5 mins before her.. a total relief knowing that i would be home soon.
 
  Tonight is a real bad night for me.. My body hass been aching for so long.. it hurts to move about.. my throat does not feel good.. the feeling is like i am falling sick..
 
  One more thing that ruined my whole damn night.. i was trying to get connected online..that took me pretty long to finally get it signed up and all.. the speakers arent working.. no music..no nothing.. and the loading speed is super super LAGGING... i hate the one tt use the comp the most.. anyways.. i really need to take a breather... i really need to be facing anyone everyong but the people living at where i live... they are eye sores... its killing me slowly..

Tripping stone

  Heard from my friend.. tripping stone means like tripping due to taking stone (ecstasy). The effects will be like feeling cranky and high then follow by feeling weird and stoned. I think w/o pills.. people get that effect too.. not a sudden overnight thing.. but slowly gradually the effects develope. i feel like i m the tripping stone... i cause harm..i create burden and hinder future..slowly inducing pain n hurt..just like being a ban dao shi... i should move away.. move on.. not to harm anymore.
 
  Last night, i  had this sad sad sad feeling all of a sudden.. i felt lost.. something i have presisted for so long.. yet, before i am even one third close.. i already knew feelings have changed, people have changed..everythin around had made some changes.. hard to describe the difference i felt inside.. but when i realized it.. i felt uneasy.. upset
 
  Life is never easy..i m contented to have those i love nearby me.. though i dun see them often.. at least i never lose them forever.. though contented.. no one is every quite appreciative with what they are given..i guess just have to constantly remind oneself that life goes on whether u like it or not.. 'REN'.. bear with it..happy days will come in time..** fingers crossed**

What a off day it had been...

Thursday.. my off day..seemed to have looked forward to this day for so long.. n now.. sadly.. its gonna be over in 10 minutes..

It had been a long day for me.. Had my prawn mee finally this morning.. havent had tt for ages.. used to frequent that bugis prawn mee every sunday.. love the soup base.. haha.. well.. at least i had it today..can resist my craving for it for some time now.. hee

Then.. time passed so slow during the driving lesson this afternoon.. its a DRAG to learn to drive.. the 1 over hour suxxxssszzz...my god.. how many times must i fail TP??.. its scary.. n i m totally not confident for the up coming test.. hai.. miserable.. n very very pathetic..ME..

Well.. evening was quite good for me... hee.. at least i see that someone.. although only met up for like 4 hrs in total.. i tell u.. its better than none...the feeling is great.. to be able to smile in my heart.. feeling happy instead of sadness day in day out.. is life turning better for me?!... well.. as usual.. i m just a confused kid living on earth.. searching for solutions day to day...

Finally .. a long awaited off day

Ok..i have been working continuously for 9 long days.. although the hours are not that long.. its from 12-9pm.. but its very tiring. One thing is that i sleep pretty late.. i sleep about 3am on the average.. and i wake up about 9am in the morning.. plus i dream dream dream too much during my so-called sleep.. which makes my brain work all nite w/o resting.. Sooooo... i never actually REST!! Therefore, i am so bloody worn out.. My body ache is really bad.. i need a massage badly. I saw the sign board stating $20 dollars shoulder massage while i walked passed  the KENKO shop this morning and i was so tempted to walk in to try.. but time doesnt permit that.. i had to rush to work.. i dont even have 20 mins to spare..

Oh my.. thanks thanks thanks so much for a off day.. where i can finally slack at home.. do nothing and jus hug my tv all day long.. or at least for the whole half day..haha.. i love watching tv programmes.. they take my mind off all the worries i have and just glue myself to the bed.. n eyes glued to the shows on. Love that feeling...

And i m so happy about one more thing that is happening tomorrow.. i cant wait for the time to fast forward till 6pm in the evening.. n see someone i havent seen for like 9 days..i m quite excited inside.. but of course i have to act like normal..stay cool on the outside.. not to let the person know how delighted i am.. heehee.. thinking of seeing that someone also bring smiles to my face.. feel so silly smiling to my thoughts... hee

 

routinary daily job

  Well, i just got into full time working life less than 2 months.. yet i m getting tired of my present job. My job scope is not wide, in fact there is nothing much for me to do and that is a real serious problem for me. I hate to be bored without anything to do, it makes me feel unless idlying in the shop. All i can do, is to try to pretend to do something that is just totally unnecessary to 'act' busy. But inside.. i am feeling totally suxxxxzz! Everyday, i am counting the hours left before i can go off work, dragging myself to work.. work becomes something that i never look forward to.
 
  I guess being a student is still the Best! Minus off the exams.. i guess thats the most fun part of life.. to be a student .. to receive knowledge and just be youself. I feel, being a student.. all you need to account to is yourself. In the working world.. you have to learn to work with all sorts of people, taking peoples' temper and weird attitude, being warned about wrong working styles that your boss does not fancy or etc. Thats very stressful and unpleasant to deal with day to day.. Oh, i jus wish wish wish i can be a student.. study.. slack.. hang out with friends whenever i want.. not worried that i have to work the next day... that will be cool!