Achie aches...

**Aches// Just leave me alone..all that headaches..bodyaches...all the dizziness i m experiencing lately...killing me softly..!!! ..hmmmm.... seriously, i have no idea what are the causes of all these... accumulated all year round of slepless nights?..bad weather?...too much of sweets cocoa etc?... or what?? Just what the hell caused all my acheszzzzzzzzz..........?!?!

Anyhow, lately it just seems so hard to get to use com.. haha... its always like online for that very short 5 or 10 mins.. delete some junk mails ..n opps... i gtg. Hmm..not as if i m busy or wat..jus tt i dont even have a com to use.So, i dont get a chance to nag online..to release my crazy stress inside..

happier?

its been quite some time since i have the mood to actually write anything or nag or complain in here.. its not that i m feeling sad or that i m busy or wat.. jus simply dont have the urge to write anythin. like now.. i basically dunno wat crap i m writting... haha..

well.. i feel happier on the outside these days.. occupy myself with things to do... seems like there is sun shiney days after all the drama mama......

but, inside... i guess i m somehow subconciously stressed up or something. Cant sleep, dream my way thru the sleepin time.. wake up with that totally shack look n i look so so pale every morning. Damn...

Y, y , Y ???? i aint happy inside? or wats bothering me.. i have no idea... the thought of seeing a doctor may or may not help.. pills? vitamins? or wat? help.... my pillow.... where is my pillow to help me to sleep.. i need my PILLOW...........

crap shit

B-I-R-T-H-D-A-Y

its jus a day a human is out to breathe in the real ugly cunning world.. wats there to celebrate?!! erm... n also its a day people said to repay your parents with a treat to thank them for bringing you into the world, is that rite?!.... hmmm... not sure.

every year, i simply feel weird to celebrate what b-day... i always wish to hide away... be alone n not celebrate... i dunno y... its like a phobia... crazy me! this year, i tried to celebrate... but i was kind of sad after the so called b-day of mine... a total long story.

Well, on the 23rd of sep.. as usual.. i had to work.. n suddenly, someone came into the shop to deliver flowers! first look at them, i thought to myself..:who knows i like lilies n stil send them to my workplace?' .. puzzled! so that fat acmat asked me to open up the card.. he was more excited than me... erm... haha... Shockingly when i open up the card... there was a few paragraph of words... w/o reading.. i went straight to the sender... it was from my 2 very sweet friends currently in sydney..!! i was so so happy that i kept smiling... they actually went to the extent to send me flowers to my workplace when they r so far away.. i find that its very thoughtful of them... sweet la!!!!! heehee.... that really made my day...

At the end of the day.. i did not go out to celebrate.. i went home.. super tired.. worn out! Had a hard time reaching home... n had dinner at home, luckily there is someone to cook pasta for me.. if not i would have eaten maggie mee. Before the strike of 12.. i was already asleep... wat a way to count down..wahaha...

24th sep.. the b day-day... woke up... slack around... had lunch then dinner then went to zouk... but somethin sad happened. i went with 2 group of friends.. my best best friends.. n my poly mates... basically... i felt totally weird.. awkward.. i didnt know who to talk to... cos i felt out of place... so i keep going in n out of the dance area... so that i wont feel stuck. Worse of all .. my hand phone die on me when i reach zouk.. had to exchange handphone with my friend.. end up i dunno all the people that msg me.. end up asking everyone who msged..:who r u? ... sighzz

then.. something bad happened that very nite.... i actually hurt my best friend w/o realizing.. i really dun wish for that ... i would rather avoid such things... hai... a long story ... but anyways... its over..

N best part of this yr b day.. i dun even have a cake.. i never cut any cake.. blow any candles.. inside.. i m unhappy... for i love to eat cakes... i really like the idea of not celebrating.. but i need to cut cake... make a wish n blow out the candles... that didnt happen this year... *sigh sigh sigh........ cant anyone tell i m a cake lover aft all these yrs................... So, offically.. i m not 20 yet............. is tt gd or bad?!?!?!.............................

Rainy-Gloomy-Moody-

A wet wet Tuesday..Pretty drama rite from the morning's woke up, just in time to bathe n tag along with joy to go out. Once out of the carpark, i realized i left my fone at home..(w/o my fone,my whole day would be pretty dull for i have nothin to do)...but she was in a rush..so i never went back for my fone n just left. She dropped me off at great world city, it was only 11:20am..so early,Therefore i went shopping. Shop n shop.. spent 130 bucks..within 15 mins,haiz! Then i felt i needed my fone, therefore i took a cab back home at 11:45am..thinking i can use the same cab to work(no time le). Who knows, i realized the sales girl keyed something wrong, therefore instead of heading to work place, i went back great world..then, i realized i need to help joy drop her cheque.. all in all took me some time to settle all these, so i had to take a cab to work cos i m late plus its drizzling out there**lazy me!

Start work, pretty lazy n gloomy.. n next thing i looked across country road.. its pouring so heavily out there.. the skies were all dark grey.. so depressing la! Plus this week has been a real quiet week., no customers to help pass time.. therefore, i felt more moody.. i had nothing to do... i have to think so hard wat i can do to pass time. This is very bad..Nothin to do.. cant slack,relax nor sleep.. only to sit there n rot.. how stupid can tt be!All i could do was eat n eat.. shop around..sms crappy stuffs to pull thru the rest of the day.. oh m i glad the day had passed. Really not looking forward to tomorrow.. Big Sigh!

RAiny cold weather:It would be perfect to be able to be in bed ..snuggling with that someone n then sleep thru the day.. wow!~! nice.......... i miss him

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Happy..sha la la.. everybody should be happy

#General: It has been an lazy monday.. with nothin much to do at work Xcept munching away n slacking. I dislike this lifestyle.. crappy.. all i do is complain about being bored bored bored.. my brains arent functioning well.. they are turning rusty!!

**Bad news of the day: Unhappy day, i did somethin i so so so shouldnt have done.. i quarreled with someone i shouldn't have.. causing bad moodzz the whole day..everything back to square 1.... totally screwed!

+Idea: People look at relationships as the longer u r together=the happier u r. is that right? erm.. i disagree.. I think the months or years being together doesnt account for anything.. quantity doesnt mean there is quality in it..What is important is that you are happy being with the person, spending quality leisure time together.. So, be happy.. try to make the best out of time spend together.. dont over do somethings over planned..causing nothing but quarrels during meetings.. tt will jus be another sad case if such events happen.....

'Staying Happy' should be the priority in life.. hope everyones' life can be a little happier by taking it easy .. relax sua.................breathe in..breathe out

Lonely..Lonely..Lonely..

Are u lonesome tonite? Yes!! very...exteremely...

Haiz.. its tough w/o that special someone being there to help you pull thru the emptiness felt inside.
The emptiness is making me feel very depress.. causing me to have sleepless nitez full of nite-maresssss....

Where is he when i need him?does he even know i m shouting out for him constantly from the inside?it is real hard to control the inner emotions.
Everyone can hide their inner selfs and pretend to be happy n crazy on the outside.. but who are those so-called friends that truly know that you are actually depress more than anythin else?! out of ten, i doubt at most 1 truly understands you.. in fact, maybe the answer is a big '0' ..!!!!!a total sad case...

Soul mates.. people often claim they have one.. is there really someone tt truly knows you so well to be your soulmate? wow.. i truly envy those people who have found theirs.. i would want one too.. but my soul mate would be none other than myself.. how nice!!..pathetic! my vocab is way too limited..damn!!

i m lonely..lonely..lonely..lonely. as usual.. does anyone care?!.. heck..............

EXHAUSTED

HmmMmmmmMmMm, how many days have i been working continuously??.... 15 days already!!!!!

i m really tired..worn out. The daily routine is making me sick... wake up, work, wait for end of work, go home, be tired n try to sleep.. next thing is wake up time n everything starts all over again..in a crappy cycle. haizzzzzzzz......... life is so monotonous.

brain isn't even functioning properly...

Nuts about N.U.T.S...

## Suddenly cheesecakes are not tepmting anymore... instead ...all i think about now are nutty nut stuffs... like pecan pie, walnut loafs, almond tarts..etc.. all the nuts!!

...........N not forgetting my very lastest craving .. CARROT CAKE!!! Not the pan fried type but the dessert type. tts heavenly... but not every where serves nice carrot cake.. not tt i tried many many places carrot cake, but the best so far is the one at Dan Ryans!! The carrot cake there is made of pure carrots.. with walnuts and raisins.... n of cos lots of brown sugar n cream. Just ignore the fattening facts... just indulge in that huge piece of cake..yummy yum yum........ simply irresistable. heehee....

@s for the Nutty Food -->i feel that pecan pie at the N.Y.D.C is really nice.. served warm.. not too sweet n sticky.. nice!!
-->The walnut loaf n the almond loaf found only at raffles city CEDELE is also very very good.. plain bread that has strong cinnamon taste topped with sticky sweet walnut / almond nuts... every bite is simply full of nuts... nice nice!! a must try**

*Next on the list ...Waffles.... since A n W... there isnt somewhere tt serves really nice warm waffle anymore.. until there is Gelare, cafe cartel and the Big O.. these few places serve tasty waffles. The soft warm waffles with all the fruit toppings and tempting maple syrup... wow... plus sharing with that special someone .... the heart feels totally coated with honey sugar!! heehee....

All day i think about Food...food.. n more food?????!!

Cravings n Temptations

Seriously, i have no will power.. at least not towards food!! my god.. i have been sick for 1 week now.. n seriously i m not getting any any better!! in fact, the flu n sore throat just cause me to have more n more sleepless nights.. damn! I know i cannot drink stuff like milo/ chocolate, cannot eat chips n fried food...but my cravings for junk food just cannot stop. Every morning i wake up feeling terrible.. but when i m at work, i cant resist the temptations of chocolaty stuffs.. cannot stop munching crackers sweets.. etc. At nite, i take mid night snacks.. all the peanuts n chips cause my thriat to be super sore in the morning.. almost lost my voice...

To make matters worse, there is mooncakes and lovely muffins together with nice sponge cakes from the Conrad hotel for sale, just outside my working place.. oh no no no no... tempting me everyday... ! Plus my shop gets free mooncakes, i simply eat them almost everyday... so heaty but yet thanks to my cravings.. not able to resist temptations....i end up still in this sick condition... bad bad girl me.... hai.... zzz

Sick.. inside out.. does anyone care?!?!

I have fallen ill. The usual sore itchy throat .. the usual migraines.. the usual bloated stomach.. the usual body aches n the very very frequent heart ache all going on at the same time.. therefore i must say.. i m sick inside out..!!!

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I wish i have someone to take care of me ...

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Seeing couples on the streets.. i cannot help it at times but to stare at them.... not tt i m jealous of them.. but i envy those that are so lovey dovey.. so sweet!! ENVIOUS!! Its really nice when there is a someone in ur life.. Sharing n caring for u.. being there for u.. n allowing you into his/ her life totally..

Thinking about it.. being single n avaliable individual.. without any admirers/crushes/flings..etc... life can be pretty un-interesting.. picturing myself last on the phone with someone... just chit chatting ..talking about anything n everything .. tt seemed like ages ago. Wow, i feel i have lost touch with people. tts not good.......

Seriously, now.. i just wish someone is taking care of me.. hugging me to bed or just chat with me till i fall asleep.. concerning about my illness.. being so nice n sweet......ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......i miss that. No one.. really no one cares now...

???????????????????wat the heck..sick then sick lo.... who will bother about jj??!! totally ' ... '

Allergic reaction

Totally dusty.... !! Stef room is in such a mess... i just cant take the dust..

Well, being kind hearted .. thinking she cant sleep if i dont accompany to... i went to stay over at her house. But damn.. her room was so so dirty n full of dust. Wonder when was the last time she was ever HOME!! i was super super tired.. in fact, i slept on her car. First thing i went to her room, i pulled out the sofa bed n fell asleep. Next thing i woke up.. i took off my contacts n went to bathe.. My eyes were all sore red n teary n very very itchy!! its hurts quite a bit.. but i was too tired to care.. therefore i went to bed thinking i could jus bear with it.. n all would be fine in the morning.

But.. OMG... when i woke up.. my eyes were all red.. n my left eye.. swell up so badly. I mean.. i m suppose to be a primary eye care person.. yet i myself got so shocked! My white part of the eye swell so badly tt my cornea(brown) part of it.. looks indented!! n my whole eye lids area swell n felt very very painful.. n in fact the white part of my eye turned yellow.. n on top of all tt... it kept tearing non stop... BAD BA BAD condition.

I woke stef up n she accompanied me to Optometry centre to check my eyes.. i was down with severe chemosis .. episcleritis. All the terms sound familiar.. but i forgot wats tt.. haha!! so.. my lecturer.. wrote me a referral letter to help cure my pain asap...n asked me to go to the a & e department at NUH.

Best of all.. i could still go orchard n have lunch..did a little shopping before i got myself to the hospital.. wondered wat the ppl om the streets think of my eye!??!?!!!! ..haha

So .. i went to NUH... my god.. the queue was so bloodly long... the estimated waiting time was 2 to 2 1/2 hrs... I hate to wait.. but no choice had to... But .. who knows.... half way thru waiting.. my sister told me i could have gone to private hospital.. suddenly.. i felt so stupid.. wasted so much time waiting... plus.. the doctor there was so totally lousy.. know nuts about eyes..hurting both my eyes!! crap!!! Ended up i wasted like 4hrs at the place n wasted 80 plus bucks... wats tt man...

Bad day for me.. eyes were not doing well.. n my body was aching n i was coughing away.... Bad luck i must say....

M i too persistent or plain stubbon n stuck up ... ??

Since ages ago.. i just wish i can have a place i call my own.. to be able to support myself.. but i always try to hide my inner feelings and just quietly accept my fate.. in which it seemed to be in my parents hands.. but hell with it.. all they ever did.. were to destroy my confidence n making me feel that i m better off not having them to corrupt my mindset. DAMN!

I tried very hard to maintain a more peaceful environment by keeping my opinons to the minimum n not voicing out any real unhappiness i have.. yet, i guess they are just getting me for granted.. only selectively hear and see the things they want to..thinking i will be afraid of them forever!... the fact is, i m not the least afraid of them.. not afraid of them scolding me, hitting me or wat.. i dont care about making them 'lose face' .. but i jus keep silence to show respect for the elders..

R.E.S.P.E.C.T .. wats that?? that is something that all men deserve if they work hard for it n earn it.. not used for useless shit bums that does not deserve it. SoooOOooooo..... if one does nothing to deserve any respect.. jus dont give it to them.. for they will take things for granted . Thats exactly what i have done wrong for so many years.. i gave them respect they don't deserve.. Thats a total mistake.. n that is why i m persistent about my very own decision.. not to give in to their nonsense.. m i wrong? it gets very out of hand once my mind start thinking of all the posibilities of life in the near future.. my ideas of present future may sound crazy to people.. but all i can say.. its not out of anger that i made the decisions.. n of cos, i cant be certain that my decisions are right... M i just way too stubbon..blaming all around me except myself or should i follow the way i feel n go for what i feel is right???? damn damn damn....... Confused ..

Drama MaMa

TODAY, a friend of mine told me.. i m somewhat living a drama life.. with unresonable parents, disgusting brother n many fights n disputes going on in my life recently.. Maybe, like he had mentioned.. my family watched way too many HK serials that lead to the very dramatic situation i m in now.. basically almost homeless n rather pathetic. haizzz

If life is so drama mama, then perhaps every scene can be plotted n take NG shots n repeat into something better.. but in reality.. life is worse than dramas.. u can't change anything.. can't choose an ending of preference.. can't plan what to be filmed into our very own life. ZzzzZZzzz..big big SIGHzz***

Rewind rewind rewind.. i is not such a bad word after all... minus off the negative meaning of it.. i mean.. if one can rewind from all the painful memories.. away from all the miseries.. tts still good... then it would be like a load off the chest.. easier to breathe.. easier to cheer up the inner soul...

Imperfections,Commitments...

Must life be full of imperfections? I agree that life can never be totally perfect but i dont think it is too much to ask for litle little happiness in life to perfect each day. Each day just seem to add on to the already heavy burden.. adding on to the inner unhappiness.. in this way, i dont see how one can try to perfect their day to day life. So totally pathetic..

Everyday, we r filled with different commitments.. commit to perform different tasks that takes on us. What is commitment? Is it something that people are willing to give or just commiting for the sake of routinary daily life .. an excuse to continue each day?! no idea!

I mean, whats the point of commiting to something or someone if one is not willing to do so? Just like being forced to study or work.. if one is unhappy with their day to day activities.. its misery and that adds on to become a huge burden in life. Or just like being force to commit to someone, if the feeling isn't right, if its not done out of love.. commitment is totally wrong! It would be more like a chore than an enjoyment/ fulfilment to commit out of caring n respecting that special someone..

Does it mean no commitment=freedom + flings? It curious me. **

*To me, No commitment just means having more time to think about a proper future..to think of a better way to lead a more fulfilling life.. but wat does it mean to others? more fun n freedom or that people are just too pre occupied with their own life.. having no time left for others..no room to include someone else to lead a new life together?!?!?! i don't understand, its fustrating.

* I don't think no commitment gives people the chance of being able to flirt around, be with anyone you want without thinking of any consequences. i guess avoiding commitment is to try to shrink responsibility.. avoiding reality.. n thats merely out of immature thinking.

Misunderstood..

Its powerful how words can be twisted n changed into some totally different meaning and people interpret them in some ways you didnt try to mean.. tts really what you call..Mizzz--understooD!

It is also really scary how the mind and heart works.. they seem to be good buddies and yet enemies at times. They contradict in many ways..its confusing..!! Sometimes..your heart feels something..but yet the brain may generate the feeling into somehow..a different idea and thats how people get all messed up emotionally .. its haye wire inside out.. n thats a sad case.It is hard to choose which to follow..the instinct or the logic from the so-called functioning brain! tedious..complex..n totally unreasonable.

'Stressed out'..this cause alot of changes to the mind n body..makes one experience so much at one shot..making people worn out of their energy n lose the sense of speech..thats so so bad.. i need to .. I need To.. I NEED TO.. totally TOTALLY ... ^^Wipped Out^^ ...Wipe Out all the cranky emotions and the F**K up life.. to become the same old brand new me.. it would be great i guess.. being happy inside out n leading a totally new/newer life.. Oh..i cannot WAIT til that bright day starts..

H33h33.. where should i even begin? ..seems like 'talking big'

rewind..

Rewind.. this word just suddenly hit me..
My heart is aching so badly.. i m so so bad at handling relationships.. or sustaining them. Oh my, i want to leave the life i have been leading.. i want to change my life into a better one. But, i m lost..i dunno where to begin the change.. can i ever change? ...

These few months..everything just stArted to slowly rewind from me.. all the sweetness, all the happiness, all the love i thought i was holding on!

Today is a pretty bad day for me.. i m so thankful i have all those i hold dear with me..supporting me..

i need help.. i really need help at this point in life, i wish to let that someone know.. i need him to be around me.. yet, i cant.. for if i told him.. he might pity me n try to patronise me .. but i dun wan that pity.. i rather try to stand on my own n help myself out.. its hard.. i m mentally breaking down ..who can i ever turn to??!!!!.. totally crazy.. sighzzzz

Losses

Everyone experiences loss in their life. Losing something or someone may either change our life for the better for vice versa..for the worse, i feel it varies from the two extreme ends!! Ups and downs..life is indeed full of hiccups. I do wish i could be led into a more direct path in life..so that i would not be as lost as how i m currently.

I guess losses are actually helpful..they build character and mind..craft people to become a better human beings and live life well. I feel there is always a relationship between things and people,like a cycle. When You lose something, u will gain another.. n if u gain something, u lose something in return..it just goes round n round.

So, a little suggestion to myself n people around.. :everyone shouldn't give up hope just yet..look on the bright side ..for happiness follows after all the sorrow/loss/pain .. ciao!

Wat a night for me

  I have no idea where everyone rushes to on a wednesday night..anything fascinating on wed nite?  that cabs are so highly in demand that they are all 'on call' ... wtf.. i mean.. its already 9:15pm.. i am tired and i need a cab to get home ..none was avaliable.. DAMN.. Well, waiting was still not the worse part of it.. people actually try to steal cabs by standing slightly in front to hail a cab.. the sight is totally disgusting.. typical singaporeans... so inconsiderate. I know everyone is pressing for time.. tired.. etc.. but don't they have eyes to see that someone was actually in the queue... Hello, no courtesy at all!! that got me really upset. In the end, i had to take the bus.. i waited for the cab for 20 mins.. so i had no choice but to board the bus and went all the way to tanglin mall... trying my luck once again. This time.. same problem, people waving along the stretch of road.. in my heart, i was thinking..when can i ever reach home?.. i was blowing my top.. i wished someone could hear me complain... its annoying!! Finally, a nice taxi driver, stopped for me.. w/o stopping for that girl in front of me.. thanks so much... he was right to do so.. as i was hailing a cab like 5 mins before her.. a total relief knowing that i would be home soon.
 
  Tonight is a real bad night for me.. My body hass been aching for so long.. it hurts to move about.. my throat does not feel good.. the feeling is like i am falling sick..
 
  One more thing that ruined my whole damn night.. i was trying to get connected online..that took me pretty long to finally get it signed up and all.. the speakers arent working.. no music..no nothing.. and the loading speed is super super LAGGING... i hate the one tt use the comp the most.. anyways.. i really need to take a breather... i really need to be facing anyone everyong but the people living at where i live... they are eye sores... its killing me slowly..

Tripping stone

  Heard from my friend.. tripping stone means like tripping due to taking stone (ecstasy). The effects will be like feeling cranky and high then follow by feeling weird and stoned. I think w/o pills.. people get that effect too.. not a sudden overnight thing.. but slowly gradually the effects develope. i feel like i m the tripping stone... i cause harm..i create burden and hinder future..slowly inducing pain n hurt..just like being a ban dao shi... i should move away.. move on.. not to harm anymore.
 
  Last night, i  had this sad sad sad feeling all of a sudden.. i felt lost.. something i have presisted for so long.. yet, before i am even one third close.. i already knew feelings have changed, people have changed..everythin around had made some changes.. hard to describe the difference i felt inside.. but when i realized it.. i felt uneasy.. upset
 
  Life is never easy..i m contented to have those i love nearby me.. though i dun see them often.. at least i never lose them forever.. though contented.. no one is every quite appreciative with what they are given..i guess just have to constantly remind oneself that life goes on whether u like it or not.. 'REN'.. bear with it..happy days will come in time..** fingers crossed**

What a off day it had been...

Thursday.. my off day..seemed to have looked forward to this day for so long.. n now.. sadly.. its gonna be over in 10 minutes..

It had been a long day for me.. Had my prawn mee finally this morning.. havent had tt for ages.. used to frequent that bugis prawn mee every sunday.. love the soup base.. haha.. well.. at least i had it today..can resist my craving for it for some time now.. hee

Then.. time passed so slow during the driving lesson this afternoon.. its a DRAG to learn to drive.. the 1 over hour suxxxssszzz...my god.. how many times must i fail TP??.. its scary.. n i m totally not confident for the up coming test.. hai.. miserable.. n very very pathetic..ME..

Well.. evening was quite good for me... hee.. at least i see that someone.. although only met up for like 4 hrs in total.. i tell u.. its better than none...the feeling is great.. to be able to smile in my heart.. feeling happy instead of sadness day in day out.. is life turning better for me?!... well.. as usual.. i m just a confused kid living on earth.. searching for solutions day to day...

Finally .. a long awaited off day

Ok..i have been working continuously for 9 long days.. although the hours are not that long.. its from 12-9pm.. but its very tiring. One thing is that i sleep pretty late.. i sleep about 3am on the average.. and i wake up about 9am in the morning.. plus i dream dream dream too much during my so-called sleep.. which makes my brain work all nite w/o resting.. Sooooo... i never actually REST!! Therefore, i am so bloody worn out.. My body ache is really bad.. i need a massage badly. I saw the sign board stating $20 dollars shoulder massage while i walked passed  the KENKO shop this morning and i was so tempted to walk in to try.. but time doesnt permit that.. i had to rush to work.. i dont even have 20 mins to spare..

Oh my.. thanks thanks thanks so much for a off day.. where i can finally slack at home.. do nothing and jus hug my tv all day long.. or at least for the whole half day..haha.. i love watching tv programmes.. they take my mind off all the worries i have and just glue myself to the bed.. n eyes glued to the shows on. Love that feeling...

And i m so happy about one more thing that is happening tomorrow.. i cant wait for the time to fast forward till 6pm in the evening.. n see someone i havent seen for like 9 days..i m quite excited inside.. but of course i have to act like normal..stay cool on the outside.. not to let the person know how delighted i am.. heehee.. thinking of seeing that someone also bring smiles to my face.. feel so silly smiling to my thoughts... hee

 

routinary daily job

  Well, i just got into full time working life less than 2 months.. yet i m getting tired of my present job. My job scope is not wide, in fact there is nothing much for me to do and that is a real serious problem for me. I hate to be bored without anything to do, it makes me feel unless idlying in the shop. All i can do, is to try to pretend to do something that is just totally unnecessary to 'act' busy. But inside.. i am feeling totally suxxxxzz! Everyday, i am counting the hours left before i can go off work, dragging myself to work.. work becomes something that i never look forward to.
 
  I guess being a student is still the Best! Minus off the exams.. i guess thats the most fun part of life.. to be a student .. to receive knowledge and just be youself. I feel, being a student.. all you need to account to is yourself. In the working world.. you have to learn to work with all sorts of people, taking peoples' temper and weird attitude, being warned about wrong working styles that your boss does not fancy or etc. Thats very stressful and unpleasant to deal with day to day.. Oh, i jus wish wish wish i can be a student.. study.. slack.. hang out with friends whenever i want.. not worried that i have to work the next day... that will be cool!